I have struggled. I have prayed. I have cried. I have
prayed. I have wrestled. I have prayed. I have knocked. I have prayed. All in
the name of ministry. No one told me stepping out in this radical calling would
be so hard and take everything I have. Oh the passion that consumes my soul.
The lives of so many young girls hang in the balance. They need hope. They need
healing. They need Jesus.
And I wanted to know WHY. Why aren’t these visions you gave
me happening? Why are other ministries growing while I feel like I am
constantly taking two steps forward only to fall again. Why Lord?
And through that still small voice I heard the Lord speak.
“Amanda,
how old is Broken Within? (It will be a year old next month Lord, so 11 months?)
“Right, and what is an 11 month old able to do? Are they able to walk? Run?
Speak? Some do, yes. But most are just learning to walk. Most wobble as they
take those first few steps. They see the prize on the other side and they want
with everything inside them to get to that goal, and so they stand and take a
few wobbly steps only to fall again. But they get back up and try again with so
much excitement you think they would burst.
Sure there is frustration in not being able to run and get to the prize
quicker. But the process of learning to walk is sometimes more important than
the goal.
And the same is true with you my child. I notice every wobbly
step of faith you take. And I beam with proudness. I know that you want to
start running and someday you will be able too. But right now allow me to help
you learn to walk in this calling. Allow me to hold your hand and lead you to
where you need to go. Allow yourself and this ministry to mature in My timing
and trust that I birthed this ministry inside of you and I will bring it to
completion. "
The Lord has done such incredible things through Broken
Within these past 11 months and I have literally watched this baby of mine grow.
There have been times of sheer exhaustion. Times of wishing someone else would lighten my
load. So I could just rest. Times of rushing through those precious “baby”
moments to get to the bigger stuff. Oh but how I yearn to cherish the “in the
moment” with my “toddler”.
By watching God’s love encourage so many young girls.
Seeing real and authentic friendships being born. Allowing God’s hope and
healing transform lives. It’s not about me or the things I have done or will do
in this ministry.
It’s about JESUS. It’s all about Him.
I have known from
the time God “conceived” BWM in my soul. That this ministry was never to be a
one woman show. That I could never do the things God was calling me to do
alone. I needed like-minded women to link arms with me and God has been so
faithful to send those women my way. BWM has welcomed writers, mentors and prayer
partners on our team. And what a treasure you are to me. Thank you for your
willingness to serve and make a difference in the lives of precious young
girls.
But I also know that not everyone is called to write, speak,
mentor or pray for this ministry but I do believe that everyone has a place in
this beautiful community and I want to give you an opportunity to invest if you
feel called to do so.
Up to this point I have avoided asking for financial help
for Broken Within projects. Until the Lord made it clear it’s not about money.
It’s about linking arms and giving YOU your place in this ministry. And It’s
about Real lives. Lives of precious young girls who so desperately need the
healing and hope of Jesus.
And in this season of Broken Within there are two (wobbly)
steps of faith the Lord is calling me to.
1st: To step out and start a Teen MOPS program
in the Triad. This will be the first Teen MOPS program in the Triad and the
second in the state of NC. The need is so great and as a former Teen Mom it is
an honor to step out and pour into the lives of these precious young moms and
encourage and equip them to take their place as mothers who pour into their
children with the love of Jesus. But in order to do that they first have to be
poured into. It will take a team of passionate women to run this program. But
the first step I need to take is to purchase the curriculum and pay for the charter
fee.
And to be able to take those first steps toward these two
callings. I will need to raise a total of
$ 1,324.
$ 1,324.
·
$400 for the Teen MOPS curriculum and charter
fee.
·
$ 925 for the She Speaks Conference( Includes
Hotel, Pre Conference/Conference materials and Meals)
If you would like to link arms with me and invest in Broken
Within in this way you can do so here:
And know that YOU are so incredibly vital to me and the
lives of so many young girls that will be blessed by your gift. I can’t even begin
to describe the impact your gift will have in this ministry and from the bottom
of my heart; I want to say THANK YOU for choosing to join the BWM team in this
way! May God bless you!
~Amanda
